| Location | Stanhope |
| Age | 19 years |
| Date of Birth | 10/1987 |
| Date of Death | 11/2006 |
| Visitors | 6,345 since 04/03/2007 |
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Laura Jayne Kirwin died tragically on 11th November 2006. She was 19 years old. She was so
beautiful with the most gorgeous eyes you've ever seen. To us , she still is beautiful. She
was a devoted mammy to her little girl Keira who has inherited her mammy's beauty and wicked
sense of humour. Laura recognised in Keira the one person who had loved her without condition-no
questions or answers required. They spent so much special time together when Laura would sing to
her and read her stories. Laura thought that Keira was the best baby at everything and called her
the baby genius". Laura has three brothers-Joe, Tom and Cal. They all miss her terribly.
Callum hopes that she 's driving round in Heaven in an open top white sports car. Her cousin
Kerry Ann thought of Laura as her big sister. She looked up to her and admired her and she has the
same unique sense of style. Laura and Keira lived in Crook although Laura's heart was always
in Stanhope which is where she is now.
Laura loved life, being with her mates, partying,dancing and laughing. We laugh now at the memories
of the things she used to do and say. She loved music esp. dance music and was always wanting decks
so she could be a DJ. She loved to dance and to sing. Keira is the same. However, she also loved
Shania Twain, Celine Dion, Westlife etc. (when she was in a quieter mood). She loved to draw and
paint and was so proud that she had just learned how to paint a wall without getting paint all over
the ceiling. She was studying painting and decorating at college and hoped to set up a decorating
business once she had finished. Her college tutor thought that she had a special talent, above and
beyond the run of the mill. That was our Laura in everything-never run of the mill.
Unfortunately, there were people in Laura's life who made her very sad. It has been very
difficult in the last year and a half not to feel angry against those people. The people that are
still walking around with their lives intact. She never deserved to be treated in the way that she
was. She was never shown the love and respect that she should have been shown. All she wanted was
to be loved. I only wish she'd realised how many people loved her and cared for her and that
the idiots were in the minority.
Laura went through hell the last night of her life at the hands of her so called boyfriend who was
no more than a drunken druggie and I have relived those hideous last hours over and over again. I
cant bear to think of the pain that she went through at his hands. He was lucky to have someone as
beautiful as Laura in his life but he treated her as if she was nothing. After Laura died, the
vicar told me that she had been in hell and God had taken her out of it. I have had to question why
God didnt take him?-the one that was creating the hell!
Laura had been hoping to move back to Stanhope with Keira. Ironically, she had said to one of her
friends-"this estate is going to kill me".
The day that Laura's life ended, mine did too. I long to talk to her and to hold her and tell
her that it'll be ok. We had never been as close as we were in those last few years. She kept
me on my toes and I miss her so much. I'm so lost without her. My heart is broken and I know
that it will never mend Just the simple things like taking her some peardrops and 10 lambert and
butler and texting her to tell her to get the kettle on when I was nearly there. When we cuddled we
melted into one. I will always regret that I wasnt able to save her. All I can do now is make sure
that Keira is happy and loved and safe.
Laura's death has left such a huge void in so many people's lives. We know that life will
never be the same again. She was such a big personality, loved by more people than she ever knew.
I'm sure she knows now. A year and a half later and some people expect you to be over it!!
How can we ever be over it? We will miss her and long for her forever.
The people that really knew Laura knew what a sensitive soul she was and how beautiful she was on
the inside as well as the outside. She wasnt as "street-wise" as she pretended to be or
as "hard". That's why she wasnt able to deal with those people who had no feelings.
The people who took advantage of her and pretended to be her friend so they could use her and her
house.
I hope she's safe now in God's care, that's she dancing and singing in Heaven,
keeping them all on their toes. Truly DJing in God's Kitchen.
LOZZA - WE LOVE YOU - XXX
LAURA JAYNE KIRWIN - MOTHER,DAUGHTER,SISTER,GRAND-DAUGHTER,FRIEND AND........ANGEL.
You wont know me debbie but i know your gorgeous granddaughter, i met laura a few times and she was such a lovely girl and my heart goes out to you all, laura will be so proud of kiera she is a little star, just passing by thought i would say sorry for loss. Vicki xx
what a tragic story my heart goes oout to all of laurs family and friends especially her mum. as a mother who has lost a daughter to suicide a t the age of 19 i know the hurt pain what ifs and whys you are all going through and i wish you didnt have to take care and god bless pauline x
for debbie
Hello debbie I have just read your story about Laura, there arent words to say how i feel for you, as you say if there was a god why didnt he take HIM.
I am so sorry it must be like a nightmare, I will keep in touch thank you for philippas candle, and I hope that person gets his comeuppence.
love to you debbie x x fran x x
For Debbie ♥ღ♥
I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
Lots of love xx
My heart aches for you Debbie...and little Keira. Your angel Laura will be so proud with how you are coping and bringing her little sweetheart up. I know so well how it feels to melt into your child's cuddles. Always keep that feeling in your heart. Love Deb xx
Tender Memories ♥ღ♥
May tender memories soften your grief,
May fond recollection bring you relief,
And may you find comfort and peace in the thought
Of the joy that knowing your loved one brought...
For time and space can never divide
Or keep your loved one from your side
When memory paints in colours true
The happy hours that belonged to you.
Love to you Deb xx
When you feel lonely xx
When a person you love passes away
Look to the night sky on a clear day.
The star that to you, appears to be bright,
Will be your loved one,
Looking upon you during the night.
The lights of heaven are what shows through
As your loved one watches all that you do.
When you feel lonely for the one that you love,
Look to the Heavens in the night sky above.
With love to you Debbie
from Deb xx
miss you loz
miss you loadsxxxx
we tell keira how much you love her every weekend. she loves it when we talk about you she just sits and listens or dances around haha. she misses you lots as do we allxxxx
love you lots and always willxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxlove jenny and beth
S w є є t A и g є l
It only takes a little space,
to write how much we miss you,
But it will take the rest of our lives,
to forget the way we lost you.
♥ Love from Deb ♥
♥ღ♥ Dandelion Kisses ♥ღ♥ For Keira ♥ღ♥
Look up into the clouds; see the yellow stars in the sky.
Think of me, your mammy, your angel, in Heaven way up high.
Just imagine those stars are dandelions up above;
Yes! Dandelions are in Heaven, which I’ve learned to love.
On those sunny mornings when you wake up and feel blue;
You will notice that those yellow stars are no longer there in view.
Just look unto the meadows and the dandelions you’ll see,
They’re ones that I've tossed down to you, this lovely day, from me!
And when you find a dandelion that has turned from yellow to white,
You're supposed to make a wish; and then blow with all your might.
For you will be blowing kisses to me in Heaven above;
And I’ll be catching them, blowing them back, sent with all my love.
Please know that I am with you on this and every day;
And in the weeks and years ahead I will never, ever, stray.
I’ll be with you in the morning when you wake and see the sun;
I’ll be with you when you fall asleep just when day is done.
I will never, never be…very far from your side;
As now I can be everywhere; I shall be your guide.
Keira…remember when you see dandelions; it’s your lifetime guarantee.
I am always right up close to you, because dandelions and I are free!
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