| Location | Stanhope |
| Age | 19 years |
| Date of Birth | 10/1987 |
| Date of Death | 11/2006 |
| Visitors | 6,346 since 04/03/2007 |
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Laura Jayne Kirwin died tragically on 11th November 2006. She was 19 years old. She was so
beautiful with the most gorgeous eyes you've ever seen. To us , she still is beautiful. She
was a devoted mammy to her little girl Keira who has inherited her mammy's beauty and wicked
sense of humour. Laura recognised in Keira the one person who had loved her without condition-no
questions or answers required. They spent so much special time together when Laura would sing to
her and read her stories. Laura thought that Keira was the best baby at everything and called her
the baby genius". Laura has three brothers-Joe, Tom and Cal. They all miss her terribly.
Callum hopes that she 's driving round in Heaven in an open top white sports car. Her cousin
Kerry Ann thought of Laura as her big sister. She looked up to her and admired her and she has the
same unique sense of style. Laura and Keira lived in Crook although Laura's heart was always
in Stanhope which is where she is now.
Laura loved life, being with her mates, partying,dancing and laughing. We laugh now at the memories
of the things she used to do and say. She loved music esp. dance music and was always wanting decks
so she could be a DJ. She loved to dance and to sing. Keira is the same. However, she also loved
Shania Twain, Celine Dion, Westlife etc. (when she was in a quieter mood). She loved to draw and
paint and was so proud that she had just learned how to paint a wall without getting paint all over
the ceiling. She was studying painting and decorating at college and hoped to set up a decorating
business once she had finished. Her college tutor thought that she had a special talent, above and
beyond the run of the mill. That was our Laura in everything-never run of the mill.
Unfortunately, there were people in Laura's life who made her very sad. It has been very
difficult in the last year and a half not to feel angry against those people. The people that are
still walking around with their lives intact. She never deserved to be treated in the way that she
was. She was never shown the love and respect that she should have been shown. All she wanted was
to be loved. I only wish she'd realised how many people loved her and cared for her and that
the idiots were in the minority.
Laura went through hell the last night of her life at the hands of her so called boyfriend who was
no more than a drunken druggie and I have relived those hideous last hours over and over again. I
cant bear to think of the pain that she went through at his hands. He was lucky to have someone as
beautiful as Laura in his life but he treated her as if she was nothing. After Laura died, the
vicar told me that she had been in hell and God had taken her out of it. I have had to question why
God didnt take him?-the one that was creating the hell!
Laura had been hoping to move back to Stanhope with Keira. Ironically, she had said to one of her
friends-"this estate is going to kill me".
The day that Laura's life ended, mine did too. I long to talk to her and to hold her and tell
her that it'll be ok. We had never been as close as we were in those last few years. She kept
me on my toes and I miss her so much. I'm so lost without her. My heart is broken and I know
that it will never mend Just the simple things like taking her some peardrops and 10 lambert and
butler and texting her to tell her to get the kettle on when I was nearly there. When we cuddled we
melted into one. I will always regret that I wasnt able to save her. All I can do now is make sure
that Keira is happy and loved and safe.
Laura's death has left such a huge void in so many people's lives. We know that life will
never be the same again. She was such a big personality, loved by more people than she ever knew.
I'm sure she knows now. A year and a half later and some people expect you to be over it!!
How can we ever be over it? We will miss her and long for her forever.
The people that really knew Laura knew what a sensitive soul she was and how beautiful she was on
the inside as well as the outside. She wasnt as "street-wise" as she pretended to be or
as "hard". That's why she wasnt able to deal with those people who had no feelings.
The people who took advantage of her and pretended to be her friend so they could use her and her
house.
I hope she's safe now in God's care, that's she dancing and singing in Heaven,
keeping them all on their toes. Truly DJing in God's Kitchen.
LOZZA - WE LOVE YOU - XXX
LAURA JAYNE KIRWIN - MOTHER,DAUGHTER,SISTER,GRAND-DAUGHTER,FRIEND AND........ANGEL.
The Lighthouse - Amity Dry
The worst thing is the silence, ringing in my ears
Waking up from a dream to remember you're not here
and some days im so lonely i can barely even breathe
then something will remind me that you're still right here with me
and you're the light house, leading me home,
Guiding me through every storm
And you're the sun, that shines on my face,
The warming embrace, the light of my day
You're the lighthouse
I long to hear your laughter, to look into your eyes
And i miss the way we used to talk until the sun would rise
And some day im so angry you were taken far too soon
but i know your right beside me and your carrying me through
And i swear that i can feel you
Your breath upon my skin
And when ever i need you i can hear you whispering
when ever i need you i can hear you whispering
and you're the lighthouse, leading me home
guiding me through, every storm
and you're the sun that shines on my face
the warming embrace, the light of my days
you're the light house
you're the light house
and you're leading me home
Missing you like crazy Loz
If I could have one life time wish
One dream come true
I would pray to God with all my heart
For yesterday and you
A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I've tried
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried
You left behind broken hearts
And happy memories too
But I never wanted memories
I only wanted you
To your resting place I go
Flowers are placed with care
But nobody knows the heartache I feel
As I turn and leave you there
Others, who do not know,
Tiptoe around your name
Unaware that your name is silently
Written on my heart, my soul, my life
And inwardly I cry out to hear it spoken.
Others who do not know
Think of you as only in the past
And believe
That you only exist in my past too
Not understanding that you are
Past, Present, Future.
Others, who do not know,
Feel you as gone,
And fail to see the reality of you
Never being ‘truly’ gone from me.
The empty void of your absence
Is filled with your presence,
Your life will forever weave through mine
The divine bond cannot be severed.
Others who do not know,
Mistakenly may think that my love has been
Weakened by separation,
Feelings ceased,
Not so.
Entwined and strengthened
My love for you lives on
And has not died with death.
But you know all this,
If only others knew.
The day you went away
The birds hid in the trees
There wasn´t the smallest breeze
While the woods froze in nameless grief
Unable to believe that this would be the day...
No more waves came rolling in
No more leaves would toss and spin
The rivers would dry out but swell
Knowing all too well that this would be the day...
The sunlight held no relief
The moon sneaked in like a thief
And stole my peace of mind
And left my heart blind on this cursed day
The day you went away
They said you´re somewhere safe
My eyes see only a grave
It all seemed so untrue
This pain that I went through since that day
The day you went away
The Rose Beyond The Wall
The Rose Beyond the Wall
Near a shady wall a rose once grew,
Budded and blossomed in God's free light,
Watered and fed by the morning dew,
Shedding it's sweetness day and night.
As it grew and blossomed fair and tall,
Slowly rising to loftier height,
It came to a crevice in the wall
Through which there shone a beam of light.
Onward it crept with added strength
With never a thought of fear or pride,
It followed the light through the crevice's length
And unfolded itself on the other side.
The light, the dew, the broadening view
Were found the same as they were before,
And it lost itself in beauties new,
Breathing it's fragrance more and more.
Shall claim of death cause us to grieve
And make our courage faint and fall?
Nay! Let us faith and hope receive--
The rose still grows beyond the wall,
Scattering fragrance far and wide
Just as it did in days of yore,
Just as it did on the other side,
Just as it will forevermore
I hope with all my heart that you are still growing and blossoming somewhere Laura and that one day we will be together again. My heart is broken with longing for you Loz. I will love you forever.xxx
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT
Thank you so much for all your kind words,pictures & tributes
it is nice to know there is so many caring people who take the time to visit my Brother's site even though you are going through all your heartbreak
your angel must be so proud of you as you have a heart of gold..
Once again I thank you xoxoxoxo
♥ We have loved you forever ♥
Do not search for us...we will find you.
Do not wait for us...we are here already.
Do not whisper your name...we know it well.
We have loved you forever and time will tell...
WE ARE YOUR GUARDIAN ANGELS...
Feel your Laura's Angel presence xx
Love always, Deb
xx
To Those I Love & Who Love Me x
When I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do.
You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears,
Be happy that we had those years.
I gave you my love,you can only guess,
How much you gave me happiness.
I thank you for the love you have shown,
But now it's time I travel alone.
So grieve a while, for if grieve you must,
Then let your grief be comforted by trust.
It's only for a while we must part,
So bless the memories within your heart.
I won't be far away, for life goes on,
So if you need me, call me and I will come.
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near.
And if you listen with your heart, you'll hear
All of my love around you soft and clear.
And then when you come this way home,
I'll greet you with a smile and say, 'Welcome'.
♥ღ♥ Bless you Laura ♥ღ♥
Fly on the wings of love
Fly on the wings of love
Fly baby fly
Reaching the stars above
Touching the sky
Fly on the wings of love
Reaching the stars above
Touching the sky
I hope with all my heart that you are dancing among the stars, my lovely lovely Laura.xxx
♥ღ♥ The love goes on and on... ♥ღ♥
There's a pain beyond imagining
That’s burning in your heart
For suddenly your whole world
Has been cruelly ripped apart.
All words of consolation
Which are bound to come your way
Will probably seem empty
And of little use each day.
For when you ask the question why
It makes no sense at all
That one so precious had to die.
The only source of comfort
Is your memories and the love
And they will shine forever
Like the brightest star above.
A flame that burns eternally
So strong it lights the sky
And even through your darkest days
That flame will never die.
So many people share your pain
We grieve with you as one.
The gift of life gets taken back
But the love goes on and on.
♥ღ♥ We must always remember that the love goes on ♥ღ♥
Love Deb xx
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