Laura Jayne Kirwin

Laura Jayne Kirwin died tragically on 11th November 2006. She was 19 years old. She was so beautiful with the most gorgeous eyes you've ever seen. To us , she still is beautiful. She was a devoted mammy to her little girl Keira who has inherited her mammy's beauty and wicked sense of humour. Laura recognised in Keira the one person who had loved her without condition-no questions or answers required. They spent so much special time together when Laura would sing to her and read her stories. Laura thought that Keira was the best baby at everything and called her the baby genius". Laura has three brothers-Joe, Tom and Cal. They all miss her terribly. Callum hopes that she 's driving round in Heaven in an open top white sports car. Her cousin Kerry Ann thought of Laura as her big sister. She looked up to her and admired her and she has the same unique sense of style. Laura and Keira lived in Crook although Laura's heart was always in Stanhope which is where she is now.

Laura loved life, being with her mates, partying,dancing and laughing. We laugh now at the memories of the things she used to do and say. She loved music esp. dance music and was always wanting decks so she could be a DJ. She loved to dance and to sing. Keira is the same. However, she also loved Shania Twain, Celine Dion, Westlife etc. (when she was in a quieter mood). She loved to draw and paint and was so proud that she had just learned how to paint a wall without getting paint all over the ceiling. She was studying painting and decorating at college and hoped to set up a decorating business once she had finished. Her college tutor thought that she had a special talent, above and beyond the run of the mill. That was our Laura in everything-never run of the mill.

Unfortunately, there were people in Laura's life who made her very sad. It has been very difficult in the last year and a half not to feel angry against those people. The people that are still walking around with their lives intact. She never deserved to be treated in the way that she was. She was never shown the love and respect that she should have been shown. All she wanted was to be loved. I only wish she'd realised how many people loved her and cared for her and that the idiots were in the minority.

Laura went through hell the last night of her life at the hands of her so called boyfriend who was no more than a drunken druggie and I have relived those hideous last hours over and over again. I cant bear to think of the pain that she went through at his hands. He was lucky to have someone as beautiful as Laura in his life but he treated her as if she was nothing. After Laura died, the vicar told me that she had been in hell and God had taken her out of it. I have had to question why God didnt take him?-the one that was creating the hell!

Laura had been hoping to move back to Stanhope with Keira. Ironically, she had said to one of her friends-"this estate is going to kill me".

The day that Laura's life ended, mine did too. I long to talk to her and to hold her and tell her that it'll be ok. We had never been as close as we were in those last few years. She kept me on my toes and I miss her so much. I'm so lost without her. My heart is broken and I know that it will never mend Just the simple things like taking her some peardrops and 10 lambert and butler and texting her to tell her to get the kettle on when I was nearly there. When we cuddled we melted into one. I will always regret that I wasnt able to save her. All I can do now is make sure that Keira is happy and loved and safe.

Laura's death has left such a huge void in so many people's lives. We know that life will never be the same again. She was such a big personality, loved by more people than she ever knew. I'm sure she knows now. A year and a half later and some people expect you to be over it!! How can we ever be over it? We will miss her and long for her forever.

The people that really knew Laura knew what a sensitive soul she was and how beautiful she was on the inside as well as the outside. She wasnt as "street-wise" as she pretended to be or as "hard". That's why she wasnt able to deal with those people who had no feelings. The people who took advantage of her and pretended to be her friend so they could use her and her house.

I hope she's safe now in God's care, that's she dancing and singing in Heaven, keeping them all on their toes. Truly DJing in God's Kitchen.

LOZZA - WE LOVE YOU - XXX

LAURA JAYNE KIRWIN - MOTHER,DAUGHTER,SISTER,GRAND-DAUGHTER,FRIEND AND........ANGEL.